Well today is National Amy's Pity Party Day!
It's hard to admit but I get discouraged just like everyone else. I
question myself and decide it must be something that I am doing wrong. It's
easier to take the blame and put it all on myself than I can justify feeling
sorry for myself. What happens if that is just life? Well there is
a scary thought that would mean I am not in control and can't fix it!
Yes, I am a control freak and "fixer"! Sometimes life
just gives you a shit sandwich with a side of bad attitude.
My personal and professional life have gone through
many changes not all for the best but if I really take a look it has worked out
for the best. I have learned a lot about my friends and myself. I
have learned that I can't always figure it out, there isn't always an answer, I
can figure stuff out, there is an answer I just might not like it, people are
assholes, I am an asshole, it's okay to ask for help, its okay to admit that
life isn't perfect, & etc. Also, I would like to admit now that I
have a potty mouth (my mom hates my mouth and please note my mouth is not a
reflection of my up bringing lol). I am trying to work on it and will
always be working on it.
Okay, back to the subject at hand. I get discouraged. It is hard with things are not moving as fast as I think they should. I begin to take it personally
and want to give up. Why aren't people showing up for classes, why aren't
people training with me, how do I get people to know about the studio, maybe
this isn't my calling and etc. How are other people doing it? How
are they getting people into their studios? Should I be pushing clients
harder? Should I sell shakes? Maybe I need to change my way of
thinking? Am I being stubborn for not wanting to do some of this stuff? I
just don't know!!!
Than the positive me kicks in and says okay what
can you do? Train clients, talk about my struggles, work around clients
injuries, help people get better at things in everyday life, and make
people feel comfortable. Why isn't that enough for today, Amy Jo? It is
enough for today and it will be enough for tomorrow too. So, this girl is
just going to keep going! Slapping some mustard on my shit sandwich with a side
of attitude and eat it with a smile!
I am not sharing this because I want you to feel
sorry for me. I am sharing because I know what it is like to be
discouraged, want to give up, question life choices, question your abilities, question job choices and etc. Today I put on my running shoes and went out in the windy
weather to do intervals. That is what helped gain perspective today and focus
on the good. So, laces up your shoes,
read a good book, listen to some music or just take 7 cleansing breaths to
focus on "your positive". Stay encouraged my friends.
Amy
Jo
P.S. Don't show this blog to my mom....she will say "Oh, my word Amy! I have taught you better than to talk like that!"
